Snoozing

I spent the day kind of snoozing all the day trough. Trying to nap for a bit in the car and just get into a bit more awaken mode. And just now as I been snoozing the evening away, I had a super smoothie to get a bit more energy to actually try to write something again. Thought I was going straight from work this afternoon just home to sit and write, although working hard writing is a big project in my home with everybody needing attention and a lot of things swirling around. So I was snoozing through that and now it’s getting a bit late I am trying to wake up enough to actually put in some hours to my writing as the evening settles. I need to organize the third story in the si-fi trilogy I am writing and get that back in the light again, and I also started to write another short story in English as I was writing a short story before for the same reason, it kind of has to continue, and I think the idea is to get more into that line a bit more, tho I really need to spice up my language to be good enough I feel. So that is a project I am trying to put some energy into.

So yeah trying to get the lids up for the nightshift since I am working kind of super long hours closer to the weekend, so that w’d give me something to spinn around with the story lines as I am working to get some refreshed ideas hopefully and bring the total story to me somehow. So I am so looking forward to have some days off for the holidays and I really need to catch up with things to set my goals of writing a story per year.

Be back soon 🙂

Annons

Christmas dinner

Yesterday we managed to squeeze in a Christmas dinner buffet, a very Swedish thing, although we went for the vegan style, so there was mostly new things to try out anyway, it was really nice, and it was awesome and great to actually sit down for a bit since I had been working a crazy 13 hour shift the day before and running around like crazy for almost the whole shift.

And now it’s just about a week later and after a week of about 95 hours working (!) I am totally looking forward to a bit of laziness, it’s usually kind of busy just up until Christmas so it’s a great time of the year to waste some time working like crazy trying to remember all the ideas for new music and squeeze in a little time to get the dogs out for a walk. What to say really?

So yeah, this week I am also working my but off and trying to stay fit while doing it, so yeah hopefully get some days off between Christmas and the New Years tho.

So I have to say I am a little bit behind with the Christmas decorating and everything….

I am listening to the radio dreaming away while working tho to stay in tune for what I really feel I should be doing, ‘well what is a royal ball after all…’ hahahahaha. And right now I am kind of sleep deprived so I realize it’s a good thing just to laugh about it for a bit 🙂

Be back soon 🙂

Weather day

Being totally snowed in today so I decided to get some things done that’s been waiting for a bit. Like mount a gate for the doorpost thing in the apartment for the dogs and organizing the walk-in closet, since it’s been kind of packed with unpacked bags and boxes and things like that. So getting organized, and having a bit of things to do all saved up for another snowy day as well.

A great thing today was that I finally got to test eat the new micro greens I been growing lately 🙂 I just got the micro green project started again and it was the first micro green salad for a while, and it was delicious. So I am expanding that project as it goes and I think it’s great to grow some of my own food. So I have to get the height of the lights more perfect and a few things like that but over all I am super happy with my harvest. I had made broccoli micro greens and a tray of mixed asians with radish, pak choi, coriander and a tray with sunflowers as well. I think it’s gonna be like a week to just get through the trays as they are, so I have to time it in with the new trays coming to have a constant supply. So yeah I love that project.

I just got all cuddled up writing and trying to get a bit warmer, I just had a nicecream bowl…. Super yummy 🙂 might get into the shower just to heat up a bit. And then get into the email inbox and maybe get into the music making mode as well. Hopefully 🙂

Continue

Well, back from some kind of hole I guess, just gonna continue as before without any explanations or sideways. Grind. Forward, taking off with everything from where it used to be, from last time it snowed. Need to figure out time to make more music and a lot of things like that, and being back with friends and collaborations and just normal things really. I have really missed some of that lately and I am so looking forward to get into the grind with the music again. Anyways, as things are normal, with the snow back in business again, it’s been a while, and it was total snow chaos in town for the weekend. Tho I was lucky enough to be able to just spend the weekend indoors trying to look a bit like Elsa the frozen snow queen in the reflection of the tv screen. Hahahaha. Started to write a new tune with the piano, might be having some time to make that complete at some point. And I had to wait and put everything on hold a bit with the trilogy I am writing, so I decided to write a short story in between, and since I am writing again I might as well try to be up for the nightshift writing, it’s evening and it’s snowing and snowing outside so I might as well, it’s so nice with the light it brings, I think Long story, really.

So yeah looking forward to the week and trying to squeeze in some time to be back with friends and emails and a bit of writing and piano sessions. Most of all I am looking forward to spending some of the days at the cafes in town writing or trying to write and get more into the stories again. So just getting back to my normal habits and creating new ones and just enjoying things I guess is the schedule for the week. So in total, everything’s amazing and I couldn’t take it in any other way.

Happy 4th

Just got up and walked the dogs, been mostly in a bit of a blur from working and being sleep deprived in general, so after having the day off from work yesterday, I kind of feel a bit refreshed this morning. So I spent the day sleeping and netflixing yesterday just to catch up. I been out in the archipelago working on boats, and this week I am actually having some days off, tho hopefully I get booked in for work those days as well., I’d be happy for that 🙂

Besides all that I have gotten into the thing and starting to be a bit more inspired to make music again, altho time is a factor in the equation, so I am trying to remember the ideas as they come, to make something out of it when I have more time to make music again. Also writing wise, I have started to feel it coming a bit more lately, so that gives me a bit of hope for being good enough to continue to write the script I am in the middle of. So hopefully time is coming my way again, I am thinking to work as much as I can for the sumer and be back with my normal lifestyle for after the sumer and be back on track with my finances so I can be kind of normal again. So hopefully that schedule works so I can write my stories again and make more music. It would be such a dream to actually make enough money doing my music and writing for a living. So maybe I am even more eager to make it work after this.

So yeah, working tonight, tho just up until about ten, so I think I am walking a bit after work to keep in shape and I might even inspire people at work to make a bit healthier choices if they want to; it would be great with company walking from work anyway!

So yes, it’s 4th of July today, we usually try to do something special this day with half American daughter, so I think we have to make something for that as well today, maybe late night barbecue marshmallows or something.

So yes, happy 4th and enjoy the day 🙂

Night bus

Working my as off at the moment and doing as many hours at work as I can in the bar I am currently working in, I am so eager to get back with some of my friends and actually do something that matters to me, like music. Altho I did have a really great night at work listening to the music in the speakers thinking about how I could perfect things. It was a super busy night, and it’s kind of awesome to actually meet people at work and being super busy so it’s just nice little chats and laughs and happy people, something I rarely been doing, meeting people in this way, and I realize I really missed that, Altho I also miss sitting at home writing and doing my other things now, so I guess it’s been a bit of an eyeopener in many ways reflecting what I am doing, so anyway, a super busy night in great company. So I really appreciate meeting people more than I even thought, I realized. Yesterday I was working all night, running around in the bar and somebody at work needed a sofa to sleep in for the night, so I brought him over to my place… and we went for hours through town walking home after work. Super nice chatting away. My dog thought he was getting a daddy, hahahaha, tho sorry to say it, it was just in the friend zone. Sometimes I really want to meet somebody more that that tho, and some people have a bit of potential sometimes, and I thought about it all day, and I have really been trying to get myself in the right direction, I even used to have a set goal for being married before New Years this year, hahahaha ( I guess I’ll be late for my own wedding ), and even my daughter been adding dating apps downloading them to my phone just to make me go match with somebody. Somehow I just keep on swiping… I just seem so picky, when I try to analyze it myself, and then – when there is an obvious opening, I feel more like a restoring project for somebody, kind of unperfected and incomplete, and it’s so far from how I want things to be. Very consuming in so many ways, I have to say. So in a way I really want to avoid wasting time, and just grab somebody and get into it, and on the other hand I am so hesitant so even I am wondering if I’ll ever meet my mister right at all.

So besides analyzing and thinking about things like that today, I been working my but off in the bar, getting the night bus home (!), and been trying to figure things out. And I guess I am still waiting for mister right.

The Band

As I am working as much as I can at the moment to get over the hurdles, I also did manage to find a ‘live band that needed a singer. As I realized a bit late they were like a coverband for kind of very rocky things, kind of a bit poodle rock from the 80’ies, kind of far from what I actually want to do in terms of music as I tend to reach more towards the electronic pop mainstream kind of roads for my music, I had to pull out. It was just a feeling. Since My music is basically what I want to do, I realized. I would love to have a band or a solution to get out to more live gigs tho, and that was my idea with the band. Tho Me being a bit of slob at the moment, working a lot and being sleep deprived and having beer on my shoes and a raspy voice from the late nights working, I found it so uncomfortable to get that across, ‘I want to be kind of Me’, and I just thought it could cost more than it would taste at the end of the day, even just to try it out, even tho they were really nice and said they would be comfortable going in my direction, I just felt the gap between being kind of major. And a lot of wasted time for both ends, I wanted to avoid that. They were really nice and said they were super flexible and were interested in kind of making my music as well as their songs. I just had the weirdest feeling, and so I followed it, and decided to wait for a perfect match instead of hooking up with a half descent solution that potentially could hold me from the perfect solution. And decided to blame it on the timing. I mean it’s kind of unrealistic timing wise as well, at the moment to fit in things like that in to my schedule with a lot of work and trying to get things together again. So I really hope they find a singer that can fit them a bit better. And the thing I realized with all of that, was that I want to be my own thing, Linn DaVerde, that is me, and it kind of has to be my brand, and if being in a band it would have to consist as being Me and my thing, rather than being a full on band member in an already made band and stand for kind of their ‘brand, that was kind of very far from being me. So in a way it was good to get that figured out, and maybe it did strengthen my brand and my idea within myself a bit with being clear within the fact that I want to build my brand and the things that I want to do, altho it would be great with real people to get out doing gigs somehow and collaborate with real people and maybe doing acoustic sets and it would be awesome to just actually get somewhere and even just do something at the moment, and I think with joint forces it’s a way forward as well. So I would like to get involved with real people for making music somehow, I guess it just has to feel as the right match.

So anyways, I’ve spent the nights working as much as I can. Analyzed the performances at the ‘Rosenthal Garden Party from the other week as I been working, since I was super sober and was there to work I really soaked in how different the performances were with mostly interacting with the crowd, and all of the ways worked, it was actually very inspiring as I thought about it.

Trying to be with my RAW food thing during this time is a bit of a project working in the restaurant industry. I understand that it’s super rare being RAW vegan, so I think I am starting to bring like a bunch of bananas to work as I tend to really having to eat a bit during the nights, and it kind of tends to be unRAW ( but I am trying to get as much RAW percentage in as I can overall ) and rather than just snack away with what there is in the restaurants, because I just have to eat, I can just squeeze a banana in or make smoothies or something to make it work a bit better for me. So I have to figure something out with that. Other than that, work has been kind of fine. I was serving a cute wedding gathering yesterday, and it kind of matters to other people and it’s a thing being a part of the big moments for other people as well, making it the best it can be, I guess. So I mean during the first bit of the evenings I usually tend to consider just packing up my stuff and just leave since it’s so sucky, and then at the end of the night after running the whole evening, I usually think it’s kind of nice anyway. And since I am a person who just does my best in every aspect I can think of, I guess I am up to standard somehow anyway to stay the night.

So yeah been busy lately and I really would love to and would prefer to hang out in the nice weather with the guitar making the city streets a bit happier.

– Yo – Bartender

I been spending some rough weeks trying to get up with things back to ‘normal’, kind of. Mostly to get my economy rolling again. And I am on a roll I can say… Although I been spending a lot of time to be able to step things up for my music and writing the last few years I had to get so many steps back to be back on track as I had to move back to the city again, so I even had to go back to work as a bartender again. I mean with mixed feelings for sure. Altho I did have the pleasure to work in the Rosenthal Garden Party festival with lots and lots of bands playing. It was a great festival and I been absolutely f..ucked for a day since I been standing up serving drinks for about 12 hours shifts straight. It was super busy tho up for it with a smile. I am so looking forward to that freaking paycheck basically. And I really felt the petty for being there as a bartender as my dream would be to have gigs like that someday. And the dream felt further away than ever ‘ Well…. What’s a royal ball after all….. ‘.

So generally the pressure has been really unbearable at times lately, just to be honest. I am happy tho that I could get back to work again and just start just over the day, and it’s been almost fun at times… trying to grab ahold of aevery piece of happiness I could find, very needed, I mean at the end of the day I did get to go to the festival without paying and eating almost vegan staff food, trying to stay tuned with my positive vibe. Eating chocolate (!) and being super sleep deprived. great. So I guess I just feel further away from my dreams in reality than I ever felt I think, ever over all, at the moment, sloppy thirds, I know. So yeah kind of under my own shoes…. And just to mention being a sober person for years and years is kind of unmatched with being a bartender in a way, I know ( tho I really like to work as a bartender ) and being just me feels kind of unmatched with pretty much anything at the moment so I guess it kind of works, and when it’s a lot to do, I can avoid to think so much about everything else, I guess, and it might get things to a happier note with having to be very friendly and nice, I mean actually getting up from the sofa and grab some lipstick on the run out to the tube to be in time, greet everybody with a smile, I mean it might stick just as that, SMILE , as I picture myself with that ultra smile, just for tips. So yeah I am on a roll ( or lets say about 4 part time rolls ) grinding and wasting my time away. Fantastic.

New morning session

So yeah, today I finally got to it, with the PJ session again. I’ll link it below. Yesterday I was around town for some shopping and fixing the urban garden a bit and I think most of the week just went for the general day to day things and a bit of everything without even thinking about it, and the urban garden in my living room, omg the cucumbers are running wild in my window, and I harvested a cucumber already and it seems like there are more to come 🙂 I am testing out various hydroponic solutions to grow in other things than soil for growing medium, so I’ve been spending some time figuring that out – how to grow in only water and nutrition basically so I been researching a lot at YouTube. Super fun and it seem to really work. I would like to grow my veggies year round indoors with lights so I thought to test it out when there is lots of light streaming in from outside this time of year anyway to make things work 🙂

Today I thought to grab the guitar and go into the city centre again, so I am waiting to see what the weather looks like today, I was up before five in the morning recording my acoustic song and walking the dogs. I really like this song and it was very nice to play it out at the streets last weekend since it kind of got people to dance a bit more 🙂 So I would love to bring a better version forward maybe an electronic is coming from me as well, so if anybody up for some collaboration I’d be super happy to make something with it 🙂

Anyways, it’s a new day and it’s the best day of the week so a super happy day for you and hope you like my song 🙂

Counting Cars -LINN

Counting Cars – LINN

New week

The weekend, as in Sunday, I spent with the guitar trying to get used to the steel strings again, as I started to record a new PJ session ( a project I started a while back with acoustic morning sessions ) . So the morning went to that, and then I just kind of stood up, and wanted to do something, so I decided to go out and bring the guitar outdoors instead. So nice weather. So I, anyhow, grabbed the guitar and went to Old town, and just started a session at the busiest street I could find. It was packed with tourists, and it was great fun 🙂 if I thought I had a bit of a stage freight before that, that thing was defiantly being cured hahahahaha. Crazy and fun 🙂 I had written a sign with my YouTube channel and details and thought to make a better sign for the next time I am going out with the guitar 🙂 So after an hour or two I was super super sawr ( spellings ) with ‘steel string fingers’, and even tho it was nice weather it could have been warmer I have to say – meaning today my fingers been mega sawr, but it was well worth it 🙂 Super fun, and being out and about meeting people and making them so happy, it was a great joy 🙂 I used to work as a bartender and it was a bit simular with making people very happy, and very kind of fun, bringing lots of joy to their day 🙂 So kind of a few people were grabbing their phones and recorded as they went by and made pictures and I was posing for everything I had really 🙂 children were dancing and people were walking by discovering a new city, since there was a lot of tourists. it was a great feeling. New roads and new streets and new everything 🙂 I had been dressing up a bit for the fun of it as well and it seemed to be appreciated hahahahahaha 🙂 Next time I am thinking to make t-shirts to sell within the concept of PEACE, and that’s what I was going for.

So busier weekend than I even thought and it defiantly got me a bit more happy overall after all that has been, so a good cure even for me ; make people happy 🙂

Besides that, I was out barbecuing and walking and just hanging out. And there is a new song on the way, that I am looking forward to continue writing, and continuing the PJ session recording as well, tho I realized the version I already have at my YouTube Channel is almost acoustic…. I post the already made version here, I love the song actually ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=keySCbMWcro ) I am doing things without any form of pressure at the moment so it’s great that the PJ session gets up and recorded at some point, rather than that it should have been posted during the weekend. Tho I am really excited to get it recorded in a new acoustic way ( the first version is kind of dated and from when I first were learning how to record on my own songs so I mean there is a bit room for improvement hahahaha and I thought to make an electronic version as well ) Tho my steelstringfingers are slightly fu..cke..d for a couple days more I think so when it feels good – I am up for it ( tho that’s great since I got the tunes going within me for that new song I am writing so I am working with the lyrics in my mind a bit more thoughtful kind of I really like that 🙂 )

So yeah, I guess happiness is the big thing at the moment and if you are in town and feel for it you might as well pop by old town for the weekend, I might be there for the PEACE project 🙂