Saturday

Today I finally seemed to have my shit together enough to bring music into my world again. I had to put it on the shelf for a bit while everything else was spinning around, and today I just had some time to bring out the guitar and continue a bit from yesterday with making a live set and also get used to the guitar for a bit of a longer sessions. So I was up for it somehow today and a bit more into it, hopefully it increases as time goes, so yeah after sometime with very sawr ( how does that even spell ) fingers from being unused to the steel strings of the guitar, I finally had some new music coming to me again. I just had to write it straight away to remember it, in fractions tho something that can work out, sometimes I just fast record things with the phone to remember new ideas. So anyway, new music coming ( hopefully ). I think the hardest part is to force forward lyrics, and I think that the lyrics really is the thing, it has to be at peace kind of, so kind of often I feel super drained for lyrics, and I think it’s energy going into it, so if there is any lack of energy I am without ideas for lyrics coming, something like that, especially when things has been a bit ‘off the road´ with everything else around me, lyrics seems to be so far away. So being back with lyrics again are kind of amazing to me and a sign of things going in the right direction again, hopefully.

So yeah, music weekend – it seems to become this weekend, and that I am very happy with, and I am excited about getting into collaborations again as I feel a bit more boosted energy wise.

Annons

Hey Girl

Today turned into an exciting evening as I bumped into a friend from a long time ago. Sometimes things just has to happen for a reason, and this has to be meant to be somehow. As I first came back to Stockholm again, one of the first things that happened was that I saw this particular friend just singing a long walking by with headphones as I was waiting for the tube, OMG I thought to myself, what a welcoming back to the city again. And since I very rarely see her, I thought to miss the tube, that I was going into as I saw her, to speak with her instead, although I was in a hurry for a meeting so I had to leave it and get with the tube. Then about a day after I saw her again, and some hours after again, and again, and again and today – I was meeting her face forward as I was walking the pavement. Hey Girl, it’s been a while how are you? Is that so strange? I have had my apartment for five years and bumped in to her once in all those years, and then I see her five times in about a week. There has to be a meaning to that, I thought to myself. Yet so curious to find out. So we went back to my place and just continued our friendship as if we just met yesterday. Super happy for that.

I also managed to dust of the guitar today for a bit and started to think what songs I can make a good acoustic morning session with. So There might be a PJ session coming this weekend 🙂 And I started to figure out what songs I can actually make as in a good live set, with a guitar, and just hit the streets with if I want to and start that open stage idea I have, so I am starting with refreshing the material I do have and see if I have courage enough to try it out.

So I have to say an awesome evening, and I am super happy for spending it in great company 🙂

Guitar – check

Today I was lucky enough to have a neighbor going into the storage as I went by, since my key was yet to be found, I could sneak in with him. So the day turned into something busy grabbing things from the storage, and washing and cleaning and organizing. So I almost got the TV up working again, and I found the guitar, so that’s great, super happy for that 🙂 I was laughing a bit when I unpacked some boxes and realized the way I am as I unpacked about 16 bottles of washing softener and 10 bottles of this and that hahahahaha, I just like to have my cupbords stocked up I guess, just as being in a mini shop, and they have to be in perfect lines and rows and in order with the labels facing forward 🙂

So I been busy all day doing apartment things and it feels awesome to get my things back in order as there ment. Yesterday I was spending the evening with the tube trying to get across town for grabbing some tables, tho I was without battery in the phone it kind of turned late and without a map and all I decided to buy some other tables sometime instead and what a project moving tables in the tube (!). And it was super late when I got back. So I just turned some cardboard boxes up side down for a coffee table until I find something nice, I would love to find something antique style that I can paint or something. I am trying to grab most of the things as used or vintage, I really like that, and I think it’s the best thing for bringing a homey feeling to any new housing, bring in some vintage furnitures and things and mix it all around with old and new 🙂 really brings a homey feeling I think even tho everything is newly put together, I would like that feeling of a home rather than a furniture shop and it’s good for the environment as well 🙂

So yeah, finding new things for the apartment and being super happy for the guitar being back on track with me for the upcoming weekend, so I am really happy and it’s really great being back in town 🙂

Sunday Morning

I am kind of often into making music acoustic in the mornings, I just love the weekend mornings in general, and they are perfect for making music. So I started to record some of the sessions a while back, so that is a project that I want to continue, for my New goals list. Be up and running with the acoustic morning sessions. With my guitar in storage ( and the key – somewhere to be found hopefully ) and the piano far away, I am trying to figure out how to make sounds acoustic anyway, we shall see if I come up with something that works or if I manage to make some electronic sounds that sound acoustic all put together. I am looking forward to continue the project as soon as possible anyway 🙂 And I am looking forward to some real live session out in town in general 🙂

Today, is being spent with preparing for the week and getting everything in order, cleaning the apartment and a lot of urban gardening work. It’s growing wild here, super happy for that. I decided to save the name for a company as ‘Wild Thing’ I think that defines a lot of what’s around me at the moment and I love the song, is that with the Rolling Stones? Maybe it was a version with The Rolling Stones I realized as I researched it, since I had to check it out as I was writing this, the thing with that song seems to be with Jimi Hendrix ( Legends of Love, I listened a lot to that era of music, Love it ) So it seems that Jimi Hendrix made the best version of it in my opinion, as I found this at YouTube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FehfuJIabqM hahahahaha OMG 🙂 I got some guitar skills to work on 🙂 Prefect name either way 🙂 ‘Wild thing’ entertainment anyway hahahahaha.

I started some cucumber seeds a while back and they love the sunshine in my living room, as well as some tomato plants and a bit of herbs and salads and bell peppers as well. So I decided to start up micro greens again, bigger trays as well and we shall see how it goes. Since my eating habits was a bit disturbed for a few weeks I am having to make the RAWfood transition again, I kept it very vegan tho so it should be smoother and a good percentage being fruitarian / RAW as well – tho I have eaten more cooked and prepared vegan food to just be kind of normal than what I am used to, so I have to step things up again with the fruitarian lifestyle. And since I love to grow my own things, it kind of makes sense to grab bowls of micro greens as a base to my meals and topping it off with some fruits and veggies, and I usually make a sauce for my meals with sunflower seeds with lemon juice, in the blender or mixer to a creamy sauce, and a bit of water in it and a bit of veggies or union and what there might be in the kitchen, so it usually works great as a fruitarian. So there is non sweet fruits and sweet fruits in this way of eating, so most things that we normally refer to as veggies are actually seen as fruit, tho non sweet fruit, such as cucumbers peppers tomatoes, so that is awesome to have in the windows instead of normal houseplants I think, so that’s how I am forwarding things.

Anyway, it’s a perfect morning outside and I been out with Henry for a morning walk already. So a lot of sunshine for you today and I wish you a perfect day 🙂

Bonfire night

After having to get to terms with projects that turned into other directions than I was hoping for, I am actually super happy to be in town again. I love my apartment and I was lucky enough to keep it for the time I was away, so it was just as coming home after a bit of a journey. So we are up and running with school and everything again. So with everything starting to get more into normal I am thinking about the New goals I have to define and figure out and how I want things to progress – find New roads. It’s been a while with just picking up the pieces, I can tell you, but then again, I tried, and maybe there is a reason for everything turning other ways sometimes. And I do feel, even though it’s a bit of a set back, ( well let’s be honost Major setback) in a way it was maybe for a reason. The setback being most clear to me since my bigger goal was to move abroad with a bit of steps on the way obviously found myself back at square one again – so being back in town is a bit of a setback, to be real. But then again there might be New roads leading forward in other directions and making things worth it coming forward, we just have to wait and see. Being back in town made me realize that I actually missed it, so much, it was a feeling of coming home, and a bigger city has more to offer as a big city and it felt great to be in a more civilized place with the city energy and feeling that I absolutely love. So yes being back in the city is a good thing I feel. And ever since I first moved to this city ages ago it’s been my home even when I been out traveling and moving abroad, this is the place I seem to bounce back to and refer to as my hometown.

In the music making scene for me, the city is obviously the place to be and I even thought about starting a Facebook music initiative as for everybody to come to a certain place and just do music, listen make interactions make friends hang out build relations and network Everything really 🙂 An idea I had for a while since there is some outdoor open stages here in Stockholm, great for the sumer. So just a time and a day per week or something and just come as you are 🙂 I think it would be so great, so I am really thinking to progress with that, I mean it’s spring with sumer just around the corner, it’s buzzing city of pure energy, so I think that’s a thing I am just starting to do and if more people come – just join in it all together 🙂 all for a happy place.

I started briefly making some new electronic tunes and I am looking forward to some collaborations again 🙂 super happy for that actually 🙂 So I should be able to focus more at things that I want to do rather than doing things that I just need to do. So with everything normal being back in tracks, if I manage to get the guitar out of the storage, I might be hitting the streets this weekend just by pure happiness to make music again hahahahaha. Spread some happiness hahahahaha. Even thought to print t-shirts for it hahahahahahaha.

So yeah bonfire night here in Sweden tonight, major thing here in Sweden actually, I guess we are going to se it just nearby the apartment, I think the only thing I every year seem to think about for this bonfire night seem to be that I should have brought warmer clothes for the night.

Back in the City

After thinking things through for a while I realized there was a few updates I could write about. With a feeling of a sucky hole behind me just reaching for every particle to sweep in, like a giant hoover, I realized I should just keep on running – and the days, unwasted in a way of the feeling of surviving, became today. So here I am, back in the City and in my apartment again, after a long story, and a bit of a travel, and a bit of a mess to clean up from moving things around and grabbing furnitures to the apartment – I am kind of happy to realize spring is here and the sumer being just around the corner. And the city scent – kind of nice – so am all up for what’s to come my way again.

So yeah, shredded some pounds and started the urban garden project in the apartment, ‘survival’ gardening might be a good thing with the Ukraine situation kind of very present here in Europe. So I am upscaling everyday and I am looking forward to have my own organic produce soon. And I saved most of the stock of sprouts for any bugout situation. It’s good to be as prepared as can be I guess. So I been literally dragging bags of dirt with the tube for my urban garden and I am just longing for a car again. So anyway, I am in town again, as. a good start for the spring – ready for some music sessions as it gets warmer and I am so looking forward to the sumer 🙂

Daydreaming

Spent the days lately a bit in bed all cuddled up to be kept warm in a massive flu thing. I think the recommendations are to just see it in the perspective of any normal flu to be omicron, ( how does that even spell ) tho I am feeling a bit better so I am happy for that. So between napping and sweating I been looking at tv and just hanging out trying to feel better.

So yeah daydreaming and trying to brighten things up a bit at the moment hopefully am up for some nightshifts per usual soon again.

Traveling light

I just love to be out traveling, that’s when I work and function at my full potential, I feel. So yeah, a lot of traveling the other week got me all inspired for working even more to perfect the perfected I guess, and working myself towards the perfect. Hahahahahaha. I love that the pandemic seem to be milder nowadays and that the lockdowns and restrictions are a bit easier to navigate around for the warmer weather.

So, the continuing story in the trilogy might be getting a boost with the spring weather and just the general feel good feeling might get a boost as well.

Being a pure life person, without any toxins such as caffein and things like that in the body, I think is making the feelings a lot more clear as well. I avoided plastic packagings for ages and I think that plastic particles is affecting the mind as well, and I detoxed a lot, and I am eating detox / alkaline substitutes all the time, like chlorella and spirulina and MSM. So I think that really affects the mind, kind of. With being so clear, and avoiding toxic people and situations as well, in a way brings clearer feelings since I only concentrate at positive feelings, to maximize my being, and my time here and that makes me wanna be the best version of myself – physically and mentally and in every other aspect. I just can’t afford to waste energy at energy sucking things at all, it’s a waste for me, and my work and everything really, maybe even a waste for you in the long turn. So instead of having all the heavy weight within me, I am traveling light.

Valentines

So yeah, the most lovable day of the year, I mean I just love love so kind of have to say something about it. Just been hanging out looking at tv and napping the day, since kind of dealing with the effects of the hectic week. So it’s really nice to just be hanging out and super well needed to recharge a load, I really feel it in every aspect I can think of actually. And that’s as much of a Valentines there is for me, hahahahaha, without saying to much about official relations. I mean even if I could grab about ten bananas and get to a restaurant with somebody I guess, I may wanna avoid that at the moment to avoid getting any hopes up, waiting for the perfect one I guess.

Should really be writing the love songs of super love songs I guess to make some good use of this day. Tho I have to really just recharge and be looking at romantic comedy movies for the night I guess and just be cozy. Should have bought a massive load of comfort munchies and just snack away. Tho I feel I really have been shredding some of those extra pounds / kilos lately, and I felt so good about it so I want to keep up the good feeling of getting into my ol’ trousers and jeans. Would be kind of nice to be in some form of shape for the sumer and just feel good about things like that in general, like bikini, and I do, I am one of those people who just kind of feel good about myself in general, and I really like that actually, without wasting any time for the general bullshit of weight and things like that, I just became one of those who love myself I guess. I really think everybody are beautiful people and minds, until they do something that gets them in another light. I really tend to see people for how they are becoming, how they look and how I see them shining through in what they do. And I just want to see beautiful people, so I really do see everybody as beautiful.

So yeah, the evening continues, so happy to be back in the city, and with romantic comedy movies, perfect for a perfect night.

Hit the fern

A very hectic week turned into an even more hectic traveling back and forth everywhere about twice it feels like hahahaha, so yeah, what to say really. So been kind of busy with more of the general BS than I even thought was doable. So I just got back to town, I mean like the city, it was such a feeling to roll in to town and see all the houses and and buildings again. OMG I just love concrete and city lights, I guess. Awesome feeling. So warm and welcoming kind of. And I really felt it being so special so I even thought it must have been for a reason, and I mean everything has got to happen for a reason right? And what was the reason of the magnetic forces getting me back in town, just have to wait and see, but it feels so good to be just here, in this city, since the attracting forces kind of felt so intense on the way here. There just have to be a reason for it to bring any sense in to all of it.

So the Super Pressing week turned into a homey feeling of the city lights above, and I am super happy to realize that I did bring the microphone so I can record something for a Pj’s session during the new week since the whole weekend was consumed with the general bullshit from the week.

So yeah, I am up for it, and I feel so released to be in the city again.